Post by Kayla Sommers on May 22, 2012 17:21:00 GMT -6
It was so weird feeling like this again. It was as though she wanted to be with him but was too afraid to take that leap. The guy she danced with that night at the ball she wanted to know more about. He was so warm, gentle and caring, but there was also a mystery there and she wasn't talking about the masks. He said he understood and she believed him, but he had no idea what she had been through. Maybe she should tell him. She didn't want to loose him she just wanted him to understand more why she was so afraid to allow him close to her. Not just physically but emotionally as well. "James please...."[/color] She didn't know what she was going to say, she just didn't want him to leave. She was also a little taken back by the whole costume he was now wearing and the way his eyes glowed now was a little eerie but nothing to be scared off. Atleast she didn't feel scared of him.
"James it's not you, it's hard for me to.....let people get close."[/color] She said, her voice shaking. God she really didn't want to tell him but she kind of felt she had to, otherwise she was going to loose him for good. "You see I don't have a family, I mean they are alive but my brother started to beat me and when I told my mum and dad they didn't believe me so they disowned me, even when I told them that my brother hired a vampire to kill me. That's how I got this scar."[/color] She said and pushed her hair back, revealing the scar. "I did meet a couple of people here who said would help me but didn't. I feel for a guy who said he would give me a home and stop my brother from hurting me but it was me who ended up protecting him. My brother somehow found us on our first date and tried to kill us, but I killed my brother in self defense. I didn't mean to, not even wanted to but if I didn't he would have killed Liam. Now I think why did I bother because he just left Hogwarts one day and I didn't even know until I heard a couple of professors talking about it three days later. So I turn to my best friend, also a guy, for help and all he does is come on to me and try to sleep with me because his long term girlfriend is away. But the second she returns he tells me he never meant what he said and was just lonely."[/color] By now the tears were flowing down her cheeks, she wasn't even aware of how much she was crying.
"When she came back he proposed to her and got married then they left. I thought things were beginning to look up when the ministry got a auror to train me up but he got killed in battle and they never resigned someone to train me. So when I say I have nothing, I literally have nothing. I have no family, no friends, no home and no money. I have no idea what I'm going to do after this year and that terrifies me, but what scares me even more is trusting someone and allowing them to get close."[/color] She said and shook her head. Kayla couldn't believe she had just told him everything. "I know have scars all over my body which I hate. I never thought I was beautiful but I used to be happy with the way I looked and now when I look in the mirror I feel repulsed."[/color] She said and sunk back to the floor, knees to her chest.[/blockquote]