Who's Mad Again? [Alyssa]

[Adam Jasper Reever]

Alyssa had cheated on Adam. That was one shocking bit of information for Adam. It pissed him off and he wanted to just walk away from her but at the same time, it didn't seem to surprise him. The fact that two people never seem to be completely honest and loyal to another was the exact reason why he never dated anyways. And now he was in a relationship with a beautiful girl that he never thought he deserved. Maybe he put her on a pedestal that wasn't really deserved. Maybe, he wasn't sure. He wasn't sure of much of anything.

But as she laid on top of him, purring as he petted her hair adoringly. He found that it was hard to be mad. It happened a long time ago, so he shouldn't be so upset. She hadn't ran when his anger took the best of him and he thought more of her for that alone. Instead she stood begging for him to forgive her. He hadn't of course but he couldn't make himself just leave her neither. She turned to him with her cute face and before he knew it, he was pulled back in. The anger only at the surface ready to break he was sure, but he didn't want to be angry at her. Not Alyssa.

She meant more to him then anyone else in this world and to walk away would mean rock bottom. Though before her, what did he have? Sluts, mostly. It wasn't a bad thing to have a relationship, other than you have to learn to trust someone who can destroy you, you only have to trust that they won't. Which in this moment, with her laying there and him holding her tightly to him, he felt the pain that she could hurt him. She was the first person in a long ass time that could actually hurt him. And that sort of scared him.

He needed time, space. To remember who he was and if a relationship was really what he wanted, what he needed. But that would be pushing her away and walking away and that was hard for him to do to. He sighed, breathing back in the smell of her hair. He closed his eyes trying to remember that smell for as long as his brain will hold it. He loved her. It was true. And she loved him, but sometimes love isn't enough. He was hoping in their instance, it was.

She rubbed her finger softly cross his cheek. He breathed in heavily, letting the breath escape back out slowly. He loved the feel of her touch upon him. It made him feel safe. Made him feel the world stop as if it was only made for the two of them. He felt like he was turning into a girl. Which scared him too. He didn't like that who he was had changed so much. Then again, it was a good change was it not? He wasn't sure of the answer. Before his heart was guarded with all his life, and now it was lying on the floor bleeding. Just waiting to be stepped on again. He put both arms around her and hugged her too him without squeezing too tightly.

"You are the best thing that's happened to me, but now I just don't trust you. I can't shake that feeling. I can't shake the fact that you could hurt me again. I'm just not a relationship guy in the first place. I gave you my heart and you didn't guard it back. I don't know Alyssa. I just don't know." He hugged her tightly to him again. If he was one for tears he was sure a tear would be falling from his own cheeks now. But he wasn't that kinda guy and he knew that would at least never change. He knew how to turn off emotions and walk away and not give a shit again. Part of him wanted to do that here. But the part that cared so much kept her in his arms.

He kissed her forehead again. It was one of his favorite things to do. His affections for her would never change. He tilt his head to one side and lifted her chin to look at him. "I do love you. Remember that no matter what happens," he said staring into her eyes. He wasn't sure how this relationship was gonna do now but staring into her eyes gave him hope. He brushed his lips softly upon hers. Lightly kissing her.

[Alyssa Lockwood]

Alyssa had done the most stupidest thing in the world. She couldn’t believe she had cheated on Adam. She never thought she would have or even told him. But, she finally did. She had been glad she had let it out because, it had been bugging her inside. Even though the first time she had done it with Sylvester was before Adam and Alyssa even had met and the second time was well when they had been at Alyssa’s house. She had been so stupid to even fall for Sylvester’s tricks. She wasn’t like any of the other girls, she wasn’t. This was the first real relationship that she had, had and she was so afraid of screwing it up. Which she obviously did. She should have listened to Celeste last year. It was so hard for her to trust and so hard for Adam to trust. She was just like all of the other girls at that point she had finally realized it. She didn’t want to be though. What could possibly make her change herself and not be like the slutty girls who like slept with every guy. It was the first time she had slept with someone and she completely regretted it after. She had hated Sylvester Gaunt after that point. She had known he had killed her brother and didn’t tell anyone besides Adam at that point. Adam was right he had been a douche.

She new things were going to change from this point. She didn’t want him to push her away though, that’s what she was afraid of. She didn’t want that to happen. She was so scared. Maybe she should break it off for a while? But, she didn’t want to leave him. She didn’t know what to do. This was so frustrating, she should have never cheated on him in the first place. Stupid Alyssa, Stupid Alyssa, she had thought. She was so pissed off at herself for doing this. She hated seeing him like this she wanted to change everything. She didn’t want to see him mad. but, there had been something about Alyssa that didn’t make him mad and she didn’t know what it was about her. It was probably her soft touch she had always had that she hadn’t realized it. She sighed looking down at him as he had patted the back of her head and she purred cutely. She tried to keep a smile on her face but, then it frowned when he had told her that he couldn’t trust her. She knew that was coming. She knew it was going to be hard for him. It was her fault anyways but, it happened a long time ago and didn’t mean anything at all whatsoever. She wanted to cry at that point but, she was trying to hold everything back but, a small tear fell down from her face landing on his cheek. “I know you’re not going to trust me probably like ever again. It’s my fault I know I can take the heat for this one. I was so stupid for even falling for his stupid tricks. I should have listened to Celeste when she told me about Syl but, I didn’t. I didn’t know what was wrong with me. I don’t want to be like the other girls Adam I don’t. If I could take this back I would. I feel so stupid.” She told him as he had hugged her. She had hugged him back and had wrapped her arms around him and rested her head on his chest. He was like a big teddy bear and she loved it.

She didn’t want him to leave her or push her away. This was going to be really hard but, she knew the two could work through their problems. She knew that they could. They had been a strong enough couple. They had almost been together for a year basically almost a year and a half. She couldn’t believe it had been a year and a half. That was the longest relationship she had ever had well her only one really. Before this Alyssa hadn’t had a boyfriend ever her father always had been really protective of her and not letting her go out and such. She thinks that is why she had been scared and messed up. She didn’t know what to do. She listened to Adam as he had continued to talk and her smile went to frown in like two seconds when he had said that she could hurt him. “I know but, I won’t I promise. I know you probably don’t believe me but, I will give my all into this relationship. I want you to trust me again not right now which I wish you could but, I probably would be in the same boat you would be in but, I would at least have given you a second change because I love you so much and you are the best thing that has ever happened to me as well. I love you Adam Reever with all of my heart.” She had explained and another tear running down her cheek after he had said he loved her back and no matter what had happened. “I screwed up I know I did. I was selfish I’m being selfish right now I know. But, I don’t want you to leave. I don’t know if I can handle you walking out of my life and I know I cheated. I feel so guilty you have no idea. You deserve someone better. I can’t believe I’m saying that but, you do.” When she said that she bursted out into tears. Well not really bursted but, she cried pretty good. She couldn’t hold it in anymore. It was getting to her, everything was.